How or through whom did you come into contact with ritual abuse?

From a young age, as a baby, my father started raping me every night before he went to work. He was a baker. My mother didn’t know about it, at least consciously. My mother had DIS [dissociative identity disorder] because she experienced the same thing I did. My father — before he went to work at half past two — came to me in my room and raped me. And this went on for years. At the age of 3, torture outside the parental home started. The cult of my birthplace took measures, and exposed me to torture, a torture program. From the age of 3, I was also given to other men to rape. First I was given to my father’s employer. Within the family, there were three men, three different generations. And after that, it continued. I was really prostituted. For example, I was also with the bishop. I was passed around.

What are the typical experiences you have had as a victim?

For example, electric torture or torture in the sense that they hung me up, tied me up. And if I didn’t obey, they strangled me, they beat my legs, my shins, with huge wooden clubs.

Where and in what context did it take place?

This happened underground, below the old town. There are premises … “City of Solothurn?” Exactly, yes. Yes, and below the hospital, electric torture happened with whispers. That’s called MKUltra or Monarch Project.

What was your worst experience?

The worst thing was the electric torture. But also very hard, in retrospect, is to realize and acknowledge the extent of what was done to me in the past.

How do the perpetrators get the children to comply?

I have been trained by a cult, actually by two cults, not to defend myself against the interests of the cult, but to let this happen to me. So from a very young age, I have been trained that any resistance in me will be broken. This has to do with the fact that they … These were mostly men who had raped me, who came from cult circles, who were sent, from Freemasonry. That’s what I had come to know. I’m sure there are others. But out of Freemasonry, there are movements that worship evil and work with evil. I had to deal with them as a child. I was born into that. There are regular rituals. When you’re in there as a kid, you’re trained to go along without putting up resistance.

Finally, do you have a personal concern or message?

I would be happy if others, or many others, had the courage to talk about it. Or have the courage at all to look inside themselves, what happened to them, and deal with it, and bring that out, to the public, and find the courage to talk about it. I think there are some who had that happen to them. Because I wasn’t alone in the cult, there were other kids. So I can certainly remember 40 kids. I also know that kids who were trained and abused like me are perpetrators today. I would like to make an appeal to the perpetrators to stop, because this has no future in our world.