• Jessie Marsson
    Jessie Marsson (41) experienced ritual abuse from 4 to 14 in various European countries and Russia. He says: “They did even worse things to my brother than to me until I cooperated with them again.”
  • Svali
    Svali (66) experienced ritual abuse from 0 to 50 in various countries. She says: “In the early years, I grew up in the training center. Everyone I loved was part of it. Later, I was sent to other countries.”
  • Karin
    Karin (52) experienced ritual abuse in Switzerland between the age of 3 and 8. After all the torment, her grandfather told her, “Right, my girl, you don’t tell anyone. Good girls don’t tell.” She understood — and told no one.
  • Ron Alan
    Ron Alan (70) experienced ritual abuse from birth until today. Alan lives in Pennsylvania and says: “I’ve been in Nazi scenarios where Nazis walk around with guns and I and others shoot at them. So they still have access to me.”
  • Mary Sparrow
    Mary Sparrow (59) experienced ritual abuse from 3 to 10 in military circles in the USA near New York. She talks about traumatic torture and rape in laboratories.
  • Claudia
    Claudia (45) experienced ritual abuse from the age of 0 to 18 – in North Rhine-Westphalia, Bavaria, Austria, Belgium, and the Netherlands. “I was born into the cult,” she says.
  • Sue
    Sue (70) experienced ritual abuse between the ages of 9 and 16 in Southern California (USA). She says: «They made symbols on my body and I was naked. A lot of it happened in the novitiate years.»
  • Maria
    Maria Marias Testimony →All survivorsLast 5 publications: Share: How or through whom did you come into contact with ritual abuse? Through my parents or my family. And it was my father first. Later, my mother took over, probably because my father was an alcoholic. However, an aunt of mine is also involved. Who else, I…
  • Maria
    Maria (59) experienced ritual abuse in North Rhine-Westphalia in Germany as well as in the Netherlands and Rome. «What I had to do to other children is worse than what happened to me», she says.
  • Doug
    Doug (61) has experienced ritual abuse in Australia. Among other things, he talks about the consequences of ritual violence in his daily life: “When my daughter was born, I couldn’t look at her without having overwhelming feelings of death.”
  • Evelyne
    Evelyne (49) experienced ritual abuse in the cantons of Geneva and Vaud in Switzerland. She was designated as an assistant when she was a child: “I watched my siblings being raped and had to cut human flesh.”
  • Allie
    Allie Harrison (28) has experienced and survived sexual abuse and violence in Western USA from a young age. She has met several victims of ritual violence and speaks as part of her work as a victim advocate.
  • Ellen
    Ellen (53) experienced ritual abuse Witchita (Kansas, USA), Darmstadt, Hesse. Her first memories only came at the age of 43. Today she talks about her dying states and that she was «brought back» each time.
  • Luna
    Luna (14) experienced ritual abuse in the USA (Caribbean) from birth to 7 years. She was at manhunts and had to kill people, she says.
  • Petra
    Petra (51) experienced ritual abuse in Solothurn and the canton of Baselland in Switzerland from birth to 28. «The worst was the electric torture», she says.
  • Christine
    Christine (74) experienced ritual abuse in Lafayette, Louisiana from the age of 0 to 33. She says she was molested by priests and forced to serve as a young sex slave.
  • Natalie
    Natalie (54) experienced ritual abuse from the age of 3 to 52 in various German states, in the Netherlands and in Austria. Her darkest and gloomiest memories concern hunting lodges from where human hunts were organised.
  • Kaya
    Kaya (70) experienced ritual abuse in Pennsylvania and London from the age of 4 to 13. She lay on altars in castles and churches where she was raped and impregnated.
  • Rike Schwan
    Rike (37), who grew up in a family that worships the devil, experienced ritual violence from the age of 0 to 28 in the Essen and surrounding area, Wewelsburg, but also in London, California, the Netherlands and Sweden. “Rape was the order of the day,” she says.
  • David
    David (59) experienced ritual violence from the age of 0 to 48 and was taken to London, Berlin, the Vatican and Belgium and the Netherlands. «I was abused as a child for pornographic films.»
  • Elke
    Elke (55) experienced ritual violence in Germany and Belgium from the age of 0 to about 16. «When women turn to the dark side, they are worse than the men», she says.
  • Katy Groves
    Katy Grooves (26) experienced ritual violence in Austin, Texas from the age of 0 to 26. She shares, «I am a survivor of modern mind control programming.»
  • Nessjah
    Nessjah (51) experienced ritual abuse in Germany and the USA from age 0 to 36. She first became aware of it when she was 33.
  • Isabelle
    Isabelle (58) experienced ritual violence from the age of 0 to 6 in Zandvoort, Den Haag, Heidelberg and other countries such as Belgium, France and England. 15 broken limbs after ritual abuse have been medically confirmed.
  • Sarah
    Sarah experienced ritual abuse in California and in Alaska. “They made it so that you were seen as someone who was crazy,” she says. That’s why very few people know anything about her life until today.
  • Hajar
    Hajar (26) experienced ritual violence in Germany, Belgium and Switzerland from the age of 0 to 14. “I was forced to torture others. And I did it for self-protection.”
  • Rachel Vaughan
    Rachel Vaughan (49) experienced ritual violence in Australia from the age of 1 ½ to 16. “I did my best to block out my memories. But at the age of 33 I couldn’t; I had to write it down.”
  • Julia
    Julia (28) experienced ritual violence in Switzerland from the age of 4. She knew nothing about it until the age of 19. Repressed, split off. But then Julia discovered these marks on her abdomen.
  • Anneke Lucas
    Annecke Lucas: Anneke Lucas (60) experienced ritual violence in Belgium (among other places) between the ages of 6 and 11. “I was considered a disposable child, usable for anything,” she says.
  • Carina
    Carina (63) experienced ritual violence in various places in Germany from the age of 0 to 20. First flashbacks only set in when she was 51 and brought her back to cages and crates.
  • Max Lowen
    Max Lowen (59) experienced ritual violence in Italy (among others) from the age of 0 to 18. She talks about her experiences in the Vatican.
  • Elisa E
    Elisa E (61) experienced ritual violence in the USA (among others) from the age of 2 until her 50s. In this video she talks about her experiences on US military bases.
  • Thies
    Thies (34) experienced ritual violence in Germany from the age of 8 to 11. “If you don’t do it, it’s your ass!”, he tells in this video.
  • Chantal Frei
    Chantal Frei (52) experienced ritual violence in Switzerland (among other places) between the ages of 3 and 49. Frei gives hope in this video: “You can get out.”
  • Asia Raine
    Asia Raine (57) experienced ritual violence in the USA (among others) from the age of 0 to 37. She participated in ceremonies and organised human trafficking.
  • Lily
    Lily (39) experienced ritual violence in Germany from the age of 1 to 16. “I was nothing,” she says in this video.